Things We Don’t Say

The fight with my parents has seemingly resolved itself, yet the past week I’ve been waking at 3 a.m. in what I believe are panic attacks.
This is new for me. I don’t really panic. I get sad. I cry. But I don’t

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Women Perfectly Describe The Pain of Heartbreak

I won’t glorify or romanticize heartbreak. For me, it was a kind of death and I was forced to keep living. -Warsan Shire I remember the first time my heart was broken. I remember sitting on the cracked linoleum floor of the kitchen in our rented university house, thinking the pain would never end. I […]

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Ode to the Orgasm

Sometimes a good fuck will make me sob or laugh hysterically. It can be awkward, trying to explain thoughtless tears meaningless laughter that erupts from the better orgasms. Maybe it isn’t just that the orgasms are a thing beyond beauty and meaning and concepts Maybe it’s that they come at a time of a deep […]

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Ego Depletion

Saturday morning I woke up with a mother of a hangover. I didn’t even drink that much but clearly this ‘age thing’ is no myth. I rolled over to my fiancé. “Ugh I shouldn’t have smoked that cigarette. I feel sick. Why did you let me do that?” “Because you would have just told me, […]

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Just one more

Swallowed nausea Found catharsis in other guys Their sweat soaked sheets, your mascara crushed on a pillow You might have screamed during sex. You might have pounded the wall with your fists. You might have ripped out a sense of self and watched it leave your body. It was never for them. It was ecstasy […]

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All About Her

“How wrong is it for a woman to depend on a man to build the world she deserves?”-Anais Nin Well, she’s my favorite writer. I love how honest she has been with her writings. How knowing her made me evaluate my beliefs and about how most women see themselves. It is almost natural for a […]

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Transience

Sometimes it scares me, my ability to be okay. The way I can move forward so easily after so much has gone wrong makes life feel temporary, transient. I sometimes wonder if anything will truly stop me in my tracks, hold me in my place, keep me there, steady me. Maybe that thing will be […]

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11 Things You Learn From A Broken Heart

1. Your heart hurts for the woman that you are right now, begging for somebody to stay in her life who was terrible to her. 2. People in love often see what they want to see. You didn’t believe that love was blind until you thought about all the red flags you ignored, the nonsense […]

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