There are a few memories in my life I try not to look back on. In fact, there are entire years I’d rather not remember. Specifically, those six months in Madrid –when I was wearing those red bodycon dresses from ASOS and my chin acne was flaring up. There was a moment, however, in those six […]
I remember the first time my heart was broken. I remember sitting on the cracked linoleum floor of the kitchen in my rented university house, thinking the pain would eat me whole from the inside. That I would, in fact, die from it. I remember trying to go out, to put on a face, to […]
We are in a privileged and sometimes happy position. We see a great deal of the world. Our obligation is to pass it on to others. – Margaret Bourke-White There’s an incredible HBO documentary on Robert Mapplethorpe called ‘Look at the Pictures’. The documentary parallels the artist’s struggles with his homosexuality along with his […]
“I can safely conclude that we are single because we want to be.” ― Candace Bushnell Being single is a stage every woman – every respectable woman at least – must go through. Like a rite of passage, a woman needs to spend time alone, cultivating herself and her wants, before entering the world. Like […]
INTERVIEWER Did you have fun growing up? WASSERSTEIN I did because my mother was eccentric. I always dream of what it will be like to be a mother. Will I be strict? Playful? Stressed? What excites and terrifies me most are what parts of myself –my eccentricities, my philosophies, my beliefs –will consciously or unconsciously […]
“I am not eccentric. It’s just that I am more alive than most people. I am an unpopular electric eel set in a pond of catfish.” ― Edith Sitwell I decided to write this newsletter because for the past few weeks I’ve been more self-hating than usual. I feel like every time I leave my […]
Dearest, I feel certain I am going mad again. I feel we can’t go through another of those terrible times. And I shan’t recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can’t concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. You […]
Last week I noticed a new thing that’s been happening to me. I’m not sure when it started (a year ago? Six months ago? Twelve years ago?) but last week I officially NOTED it. It’s not depression. More like emotional combustion. Like rage and sadness and disappointment and anxiety merged into one. A tension created […]
