I am writing this in bed right now. Two hours ago I got back from a beach holiday. My first vacation in over a year. And while I expected to come home relaxed and refreshed, I find myself unable to sit still, relax, calm down. I can’t focus, read, meditate, because, well, I’m too excited. […]
If you want a thing–truly want it, want it so badly that you need it as you need air to breathe, then unless you die, you will have it. Why not? It has you. There is no escape. What a cruel and terrible thing escape would be if escape were possible. – Parable of the […]
Iconic New Yorker Fran Lebowitz is known for her sharp prose, biting wit and cunning social commentary on American life. Commonly referred to as the ‘modern day Dorothy Parker’, she made a career putting thoughts into words no one else had the capacity to think (ie the opposite of talking isn’t listening. The opposite of […]
Something’s been happening lately and I know it’s not just with me. Because a few days ago a friend came over and said he’s been having a rough time. He’s been uncharacteristically depressed, anxious, on edge. He wasn’t sure what exactly what, he said, but something was off. I know what you mean, I told him. […]
I have recently come to the terrifying and liberating conclusion that I have adult acne. It’s not a huge deal and I know there are countless worse problems I could be afflicted with, but until you get the right perspective you can’t see things that way, and for a long time I ruined my life […]
Eight years ago I skipped college graduation because I was determined to move to New York and become a writer. I was so naïve, so lonely, when I first arrived to Manhattan I remember sitting on the steps of the New York Public Library when a man came up to me and complimented me on […]
I waited five months for this. Over 150 days I yearned and dreamed and sustained myself off the idea of it. My own place. With Jay. Two bedrooms. A large kitchen. A loft in Philadelphia all our own. Last Tuesday, after the movers came, the cleaners cleaned and everyone left, Jay and I sat […]
Yes, I had nightmares—children do. After all, it takes some time to get used to being alive. And how else, except in the clarity of dreams, are you supposed to see the world all around you that’s hidden by the light of day? —Deborah Eisenberg Exactly eight days until I officially move out of my […]