“I don’t know what it is. I’m just not happy.” “But you just got an apartment! You’re engaged! You have a job! You have so much!” This is an honest conversation I had with someone the other day. It’s also a conversation I have in my head maybe three times a day. I don’t know […]
I HATE WORKING OUT. I hate it. The problem is, even if I can get myself to go one time, the pain of that one time is so strong that it keeps me from going back for another two months. But it doesn’t have to be like that, and the sooner I find a way […]
I don’t know about you, but the last few weeks (make that months) have been feeling… out of control. The way I’m eating, thinking, acting. I’m out of sync with myself and the woman I want to be. I’m drinking more than normal. I’m plagued by feelings of apathy and self hate. I find it […]
What if there were no mirrors? What if you couldn’t exhaustively study your own reflection before you left the house? What if you couldn’t catch a glimpse of yourself in a parked car’s window as you rushed past? Where would we seek out our own reflections? We’d have to search for them in other people. […]
In the darkness of a bedroom that is not ours, tangled in a stranger’s sheets, the moon intrudes. The novelty of our evening soon wears off, as do your sidelong glances, and the two of us are no longer lonely. How easily the dead of night is gentled by half-truths and candlelight. I show you […]
If I could sit here all day just to think these things through you know I would if I could but there’s just too much to do this life, it’s measured by the minutes & the hours of the days that make up our years here in a world at craze I hope for the […]
Every morning I make love to this body I used to treat her like a suit of armor Cold Detached Disposable Replaceable I wake her up every morning I play with her, stretch, push I allow her new experiences Fill every crevice with gratitude I nourish her out of love I am gentle with her […]
A woman of integrity I am Not I paint my lips the color of winterberry’s Not within the lines Bleeding onto yellowing teeth Corse laughter Head thrown back Aging howling mouth Unashamed of careless indifference I will sleep with a man without knowing His name His intentions His profession I lie For the person I […]